When I am down on my knees on the bathroom floor, sobbing because I feel so bad that I lost my temper with Faithie this morning and I yelled at her,
You offer forgiveness, even though it's not the first time I have lost my temper
I love you Jesus because......
When I am wallowing in guilt and feeling like I am not measuring up as a Mom and I again on my knees beg you to empty me of self and fill me up with you,
You do.
I love you Jesus because.......
When I ask you to show me to how to parent, how can I do this part of it properly, and I feel so weak,
You fill me up, and you gently remind me with a voice as clear as day, you speak to my heart and softly whisper that you chose me, you chose me to be Faithie's Mom, and I am reminded that you do not call the equipped, you equip the called. And this brings more tears, because I am so so grateful that I get to be her Mom, and so grateful that you are my guide.
I love you Jesus because.....
You always answer when I need you, I dont always hear you clearly, maybe sometimes you may feel far away, but I know by faith that I can trust you and you are there for me, caring for every burden
I love you Jesus because......
You make me willing to be a fool for you, willing to confess these things, put my pride in Mothering aside, and realize that I do not have this figured out. I NEED you. I need your help. To fill me up daily with patience. With love. And to help me love the way you do. All for your glory, because all good things come from you.
Blessed Redeemer. Wonderful Saviour. The Holy One. The Son of God. My Father. My God. My King.
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